i go back

Have you ever been so bored you looked back over old letters, e-mails, notes, & doodles? Every once in a while, usually when I am cleaning, I go back & look at things that I have written or have been written to me. I go back & see the progress I have made in spiritual & social growth. Yesterday was one of those mornings.

I was looking over old e-mails to & from a friend trying to find a quote to add to the blog. Being a avid lover of reading, I was reading every e-mail conversation. Reading brought back so many memories of this past year at college. Some were good, laugh out loud, memories, while others were thought provoking or sad.

I have been struggling lately with dreams. Sometimes, as I go back, I consider changing or giving up my dream because others have told me that the standard of my dreams makes achievement impossible. As I went back over the e-mails between my friend & I, I found the encouragement I needed from an e-mail that I wrote. It was funny, I was able to encourage myself with words that the Lord had given me to be an encouragement to a friend.

There are things in life I don't want to go back to: I don't wish to relive my childhood, I don't want to constantly return to sin, I don't even want to relive last year. I go back, not to relive moments gone by, but to remind myself & to learn from the past. As Chicken Little says, "Today is a new day;" why relive an old one? Yes, I go back, but in going back I am learning how to push forward.